I slept like shit…

You ever have one of those nights where you can’t fucking get any sleep? Fuck! It’s like your body is beat to shit and wants to either sleep or die, but your mind is there going, “Not so fast, mother fucker! We got shit to think about!”

You have about as much control over yourself as a goddamn baby! Sorry, it’s true and you know it.

And no matter what, you can’t shut your mind up. How does that happen? It’s your own fucking mind, right? And you can’t shut it the fuck up? No, you can’t, can you, because you’re an infant.

And when you really think about it, you’re not in control of much, are you? Oh sure, you go through the day thinking you got life by the balls. But you don’t. You don’t.

For example, did you know that you make somewhere around 35,000 decisions every fucking day? And how many of those decisions did you consciously walk yourself through, evaluating every goddamn option; every minute evaluation that needed to be made?

Guess how many?

None. Zero.

Sorry, who you think you are is just some mental construct that’s along for the ride. You think, “Ooh boy, I made some important decisions today!” Nope! You became aware of having made decisions. But by the time you were aware…boom! Your subconscious mind had already taken care of things for you.